Kerry Katona has revealed she ‘blamed herself’ for past abusive relationships in a very candid interview.
The mum-of-five is currently in the process of divorcing her third husband George Kay – who she shares three-year-old daughter Dylan-George – after a turbulent three-year relationship.
Kerry originally split with her ex back in 2015 following claims he assaulted her, but the case was later dropped after Kerry withdrew her statement and they soon got back together, before splitting again in June last year.
But now the 37-year-old has admitted that she used to blame herself for the toxic romance and the ‘situations she put herself in’.
“My last husband was quite aggressive and he was quite violent towards me”, she said on the Art of Winning Show.
“I’m not blaming nobody, I’m not blaming my mum for the drugs, I’m not blaming my husbands for the violence – I allowed myself to be in those situations.
“No one forced me to do anything I didn’t want to do.
“I’d be having epileptic fits from taking drugs and it was almost as if I was being feisty towards my husband because I wanted to get a good hiding because I thought that’s what I deserved.”
Despite her rocky road to love, Kerry – who shares Molly, 16 and Lily-Sue, 14, with ex Brian McFadden, and Heidi, 10 and Maxwell, nine, with Mark Croft – also admitted she’s always dreamed of having the perfect family life following a tough childhood.
The telly star revealed she spent the beginning of her life in foster care, while her mum gave her drugs at the age of just 14.
“I’ve been on a mission to find the right kind of man,” she said.
“When I was younger I wanted to have a husband and children; the nine-to-five job, put the tea on the table and do their homework.
“I think that’s why I got married so many times, to try and recreate my dream of having that security…the whole 1950s thing is what I wanted.”
Luckily, the former Atomic Kitten star has revealed she’s back to her best after totally transforming her lifestyle over the past few months.
“I’m stronger than ever now, I’ve walked away from it and I’ve turned it around”, she confessed.
“I’ve been bankrupt twice, married three times, five children by three different dads…but I feel amazing.”
And, with her Instagram littered with bikini snaps of her recent two stone weight loss, it’s easy to see Kerry is feeling better in herself.
Looking good, Kez.