For the very first time, Sheridan Smith has opened up about her debilitating anxiety battle that plagued her for most of last year.
The Funny Girl actress endured a tricky time in 2016. She was often forced to pull out of her career commitments, and suffered a huge blow when her father passed away in the December.
Speaking to Culture magazine, the 36-year-old singer has reflected on her public meltdown. She admitted: “My life was falling apart and I didn’t tell anyone.”
Sheridan also discussed how her crippling anxiety battle eventually left her unable to enjoy her work.
“So you think, ‘That’s it, this is me. I’m unlovable, I’m inauthentic,'” she confessed.
Sheridan also admitted, “You’re constantly worrying you’re not going to be as good as people think you should be.
“When you have that degree of anxiety, you can’t just pull yourself together and you can’t explain it. It just snowballs until it’s out of control.”
During the interview, the theatre sensation also confessed that her anxiety increased tenfold after landing the part of Fanny Brice in the stage production of Funny Girl.
(Sheridan and her late father, Colin Smith)
The actress was forced to pull out of numerous performances due to her anxiety – garnering abuse from fans online.
But she revealed that her hesitancy to talk about her feelings was brought about because she assumed no one would understand.
Sheridan admitted, “I didn’t want to talk about it.
“I just thought… people would say, ‘What have you got to be upset about?’ And I was totally grateful.
“But at the same time, I was terrified I was going to become unstuck, that I couldn’t hold these feelings of insecurity in much longer without it coming to a head.”
And although she’d had a horrific year, she revealed that her feelings had been simmering for some time.
“My dad getting cancer triggered it but it had been a long time coming. Things had been weird for years.”
Luckily, things are now looking like they’re on the up for superstar Sheridan.
She made a triumphant return to TV screens on a recent episode of Strictly, and is looking forward to the release of her first album, Sheridan: The Album.
The singer has however promised herself that given her past struggles, she’ll now only work on one project at a time.
She vowed, “I’m not going to run myself into the ground again.”