Carol Vorderman has opened up to Lorraine Kelly about how difficult it has been dealing with her mother’s death one year on.
The former Countdown mastermind revealed on ITV’s Lorraine show, that she ‘just didn’t cry’ when her mother passed last year.
‘Obviously I’ve done a lot of thinking but my mum and I had a truly unique relationship. We could not have a closer bond and I could not have been a better daughter to my mum,’ Carol confessed to Lorraine.
The 57-year-old went on to open up about how difficult she found it to understand why she wasn’t reacting to her mother’s death in the ways that most people expect.
‘When it happened, I just didn’t cry – people will say this is awful – but I just didn’t think about her. It can’t just be me who goes through this,’ Carol explained.
She continued: ‘I was a little bit angry at one point, [but] I genuinely don’t know the answer – I don’t know how you’re meant to feel. Why is it that I just haven’t cried? It’s not every day and it’s not all the time and I just don’t understand. When I was thinking about the anniversary of her death it hit me like a wave, and I couldn’t stop crying, and then it just stopped and I woke up the next morning and I carried on.’
Of course losing a loved one is bound to impact everyday life, and Carol spoke about how her life has changed since her mother’s passing.
‘I took her everywhere, looked after her and did everything for her. I [now] have a freedom I didn’t have before – it was a joy to look after her,’ the former I’m A Celebrity star revealed.
‘But I’m not lying, anyone with an elderly parent that’s hard, I was with her everyday.’
Thankfully though, it seems as though Carol has lots of support around her, including her fans who flocked to Twitter to show their support!